pray. (and He hears you)

wow. gue udah lulus sma sekarang. i survived the 3 years in hell. masih keinget jaman jaman kelas 10 yang rasanya gue mau mati saking desperatenya, barely have no real friends, and the list still goes on.
kelas 11, things get better. or at least that what i think. menurut gue, tahun kedua adalah tahun yang paling menyenangkan buat gue. mengenal kata cabut dan bolos untuk pertama kali, dan kebanyakan pada hari jumat. ada thifal, nicola, poeti, hanif, rifqi dan alvin yg sekarang bakal se universitas lagi kita bertiga, 2 menyusul, dan 1 ke ugm. tahun pertama berantem sama guru!! lol
kelas 12, setiap hari rasanya cabut terus sama bella hahaha ga selebay itu sih. tp kelas 12 bukannya tobat mau un, malah sering bgt gamasuk. but finally i survived!!!!!!!!!!! diinget-inget, kangen juga sih sama sekolah.... kangen suasana dan teman-temannya.

9 mei 2016 / pengumuman kelulusan dan snmptn
hari nano-nano. senang, sedih, nangis, kecewa, marah, nangis, ikhlas, sabar, nangis. siklus hidup pada hari tersebut. pagi-pagi ke sekolah kaya biasa pengumuman un. jam 1, pengumuman snmptn. emg orang-orang udh bilang jangan terlalu berharap, anggap aja ini hadiah. tp siapa yg gak berharap coba... teman-teman gue bilang, "udah fiy, pasti lo keterima. yg milih ini kan lo doang" fyi, gue milih teknik kimia its. dan gue emang satu-satunya orang yg milih itu. angkatan atas lumayan banyak yg keterima its, jd mau ga mau gue berharap dong wkwkwk apalagi dgn teman-teman gue yg bilang gitu. gue udh sampe mimpi-mimpi keterima, udh sampe ga tidur sehari sebelumnya, eh....

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gue inget bgt gue buka itu di mushola kokas. bareng sm bella hepi yura. pas buka.... yaudahlah. emg bukan jalannya. disitu gue gak nangis, tp gue delete snapchat sm path takut sakit hati kl ada yg share gituan WKWKW. terus di grup kelas udh pada selametan. yaudah akhirnya gue ke inten kan, INTEN SEPI BGT WOI. selesai inten, di mobil di tanyain bokap gue.. baru deh nangis. sampe rumah jg masih nangis. sampe airmatanya abis kayanya. but, life goes on. rutinitas gue tiap hari masih sama: intensif. udah ikhlas dan harus mempersiapkan diri untuk sbmptn. dan gue menjadi orang yg tambah religius.

16 mei 2016, pengumuman ppkb dan talent scouting

hari nano-nano yang kedua. gue inten seperti biasa. pagi-pagi dateng jam 10, ngerjain to dan diskusi simak bareng vian dan izel. kak ican udah nasihatin gue sebelumnya, "fiya, apapun yang terjadi hari ini, kamu harus kuat ya," ya gue mah iyain aja.. siapa yg tau apa yg bakal terjadi, gue nangis sedih atau nangis bahagia. jam 3, bel masuk kelas, dan bel pengumuman ppkb. pas mau buka, webnya crash!!! lah ampun ga tenang dong itu masuk kelas simak matdas. alhasil ngerti 1 nomer doang. terus sekitar jam 4, izel blg katanya dinsu udh buka webnya. gue izin ke toilet dan gue buka di depan sekretariat... dan ini yg keluar..

alhamdulillah yaAllah. ternyata Allah mengizinkan gue untuk menangis bahagia hari ini. i thank God, and all the people who prays, for me. bismillahhirrahmannirrahim, selangkah lebih dekat menuju cita-cita.

a very short getaway

halo! udah 2016 aja wuhu udah lama juga ga ngeblog. this year, the battle will get real. UN, US, Ujian Praktek, SBMPTN dlldldlddllddldll banyak bgtttt!!! sementara semangat gue masih sembunyi entah dimana.
jadi senin kemarin gue sama bella pergi ke Curug Nangka, belum puas liburnya jd nambah sehari hahah. so if you're wondering how could we make it, just the two of us, from jakarta to curug nangka yang jauh dari pusat kota bogor?

pertama-tama naik KRL yang ke Bogor. teriak ke mas nya MAS SAYA MAU KE BOGOR!!! jgn kaya gue kemaren, blg mau ke bogor, masnya budek, ditulisnya mau ke depok. alhasil duit gue ilang deh tuh.
nyampe Stasiun Bogor cari angkot 02 yang ke mall BTM. abis nyampe BTM turun, ganti angkot yang warna biru no. 06 kalo gasalah. internet said that we should take angkot 03 jurusan ciapus, tp setelah kita nanya mas2 nya dikasih tau angkot biru itu langsung ke Curug Nangka. malu bertanya sesat di jalan katanya.
mas angkot bakal nurunin lo di deket plang Curug Nangka, soalnya mas nya beda rute. jadi dari situ, kita naik ojek sampe ke Curug Nangka. ga ribet kan??? cuma deg degan aaja sih hahaha. kalo ditotal dari jakarta-Curug Nangka bisa 2 jam sih.

gue liat di blog2 lain, budget yang mereka keluarin ga banyak-banyak amat. tapi pas kemaren, kayanya lumayan banyak, ga sedikit ekspetasi gue. mungkin karena beda tahun ya? atau gue sama bella yang dibohongin gatau deh.

Naik KRL 10.000 (PP)
Naik angkot 02 ke BTM 3.500
Naik angkot ke Curug Nangka 16.000 (karena emang jauh banget sih, jd menurut gue masuk akal)
Naik ojeg sampe Curug Nangka 10.000
Masuk Taman Nasional Gunung Halimun Salak 10.000
Masuk Curug Nangka 7.500
Beli sandal di Curug Nangka 15.000
Beli Pop Mie di Curug Nangka 10.000
Bayar toilet 2.000

jadi setidak-tidaknya ngabisin kurang lebih 100.000.
tapi menurut gue di Curug Nangka enak banget sih! bener-bener a little escape karena di jakarta mumet banget, di sana bener-bener merasakan alam banget hahaha lebay ya?
btw ternyata di Taman Nasional Gunung Halimun Salak, curug nya ada banyak. dan ternyata kita ga ke Curug Nangka, tapi ke atasnya Curug Nangka yang gue gatau namanya curug apa. waktu gue mau ke Curug Nangka, jalanannya serem banget gitu kaya lewatin sungai berhutan... sementara gue cuma berdua jadi ga jadi deh. it was a fun trip after all.

ps: foto menyusul ga bisa di upload.

I just made a new playlist on 8tracks

http://8tracks.com/luthfiyanaifa/where-do-broken-hearts-go

Check it out and love it!

Lembang

haaai! udah seabad woii gue ga buka blog hahahah ga deng lebay

mau cerita aja de

jadii kemaren tanggal 17 sampe 18 juni X MIA 4 ngadain perpisahan di Lembang, 2 hari 1 malem

H-2

villa nya sempet di cancel soalnya jumlah kita melebihi kuota jadi dia ga mau nerima kita :(

udh pada panic! at the disco aja dahtu smua orang

17/08/14

WIDIH SUPER DUPER EXCITED BANGET GUE SAMPAI NYAMPE SEKOLAH PALING PERTAMA. kita janjian jam 7 eh baru berangkat jam 8. gak kok gak karet :-) yauda kita berangkat EH MACET di jalan ada truk terguling gitu huu kasian banget :( terus kita berhenti di km berapa ya 88 kalo gasalah? ke toilet sama beli bekal trus ngaso dulu lah bentar

lanjutin perjalanan bla bla bla nyampe deh di villa. tidur tiduran bentar trus pada ganti baju buat berenang

selesai berenang kita mandiii trs berbincang bincang di ruang tv (bohong sebenernya anak laki pada main fifa atau pes gatau gue namanya)

terus nonton glee aneh ya padahal ga ada yang di kelitikin kok glee? hadu

abis itu nonton ganteng ganteng serigala

abis itu nonton catatan hati seorang istri

gils emang ipa 4 anak sinetron banget dah

jam 10 gue poet rania kiki afnan udah bobo cantik meanwhile yang lain pada gosip di bawah

jam 11 bangun soalnya katanya mo bakar-bakar kenangan bersama mantan

yaudaa gue bangun deh tuh terus kita bbq-an sampe jam 12 kayanya? mana pas abis bbq ujan lagi. dengan nekat gue afnan rina dan iyan serta farkhan nyempil berlindung di bawah selimut biru iyan dan alhamdulillah selamat sampe villa!!

18/06/14

HARI INI NYOKAP GUE ULANG TAHUN!!! tapi gue ga ada di samping nyokap gue huhuhuhuhuhu sedi banget sampe nangis 2 ember

jam 11 kita ke De Ranch yuhu main main

/// skip part di De Ranch ///

abis itu kita pulang deh ke jakarta, berhenti duluu di km 97 buat makan sama ngaso di starbucks h e gadeng gue dibayarin kan lumayan

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(( because photos will speak more than words, Lembang 2014 ))

happy-early-new year!

it's been 1 month since my last post
2013 is almost oveeerr and i learned few things such as:

 1. don't believe people or you'll get disappointed
 2. people come and go so easily
 3. you're surrounded by hypocritical friends ew
 4. boys are jerks
 5. judgemental bitches everywhere
 6. don't care too much bc you'll get hurt too much
 7. WATCH YOUR WORDS ON SOCIAL MEDIA or some bitch will satirize u HAHA
 8. DON'T EAT NOODLE or you'll die young or get appendix
etc etc etc etc etc etc etc

2013 was a good year with many memories and i'm gonna throwback a little

january: yearbook photoshoot with 9Bulan10hari at The Phoenix
february: last run with Laforza Degalavi!
march: studied till my head exploded
april: NATIONAL EXAM
may: Laforza Degalavi's farewell party yaaaayyy!
june: Laforza Degalavi's graduation party:(
july: hello highschool:)
august: hello 17 august...............:)
september: bazkom 2013!
october: pelantikan mbrass'28
november: nothing special this month i guess
december: my first marching band's job! and i almost died when justin tweeted he's officially retiring

2014 wish:
hope all my wishes come true
............but this world isn't a wish-granting factory.

Happy Early New Year! 

2014, be awesome please

Hi

it's been a while since i'm not posting any posts

i have so many untold story that i would like to post but that will take a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong time

so now i'm gonna post another random thing that i've found on tumblr 

here you go! xx

Bold what’s true about you

I am under 18. 
I am a cuddler. (i think i only enjoy cuddle my bf lol)
I am a morning person. 
I am an only child.
I am currently in my pajamas.
I am currently pregnant.
I am left handed.
l am right handed.
I am ambidextrous.
I am a little shy around the opposite sex.
I bite my nails.
I can be paranoid at times.
I enjoy folk music.
I enjoy smoothies.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I have a car.
I have/had a hard time paying attention at school.
I have a hidden talent.
I have a pet.
I have a tendency to fall for the “wrong” guy/girl.
I have all my grandparents.
I have been to another country.
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
I have or had broken a bone.
I have caller I.D. on my phone.
I have bathed someone.
I have changed a diaper.
I have changed a lot over the past year.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have had major/minor surgery.
I have killed another person.
I have had my hair cut within the last week.
I have mood swings.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I have rejected someone before.
I like the taste of blood. 
I love Michael Jackson.
I love sleeping. (CERTAINLY.)
I love to shop. (i mean, who doesn't?)
I own 100 CDs or more.
I own and use a library card.
I read books for pleasure in my spare time.
I sleep a lot during the day.
I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
I work at a job that I enjoy.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I am wearing socks.
I am tired. (like, all the time)
I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt.
I consume at least one alcoholic drink every month.

I have/had:
Finished college.
Smoked cigarettes.
Ridden every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a concert.
Helped someone.
Spun turn tables.
Watched four movies in one night.
Been broken up with.Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced. 
Cried yourself to sleep. 
Spent over $200 in one day.
Cheated on someone. 
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Skipped school.
Gotten in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library. 
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies. (in one night)
Fired a gun.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Attempted suicide.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn’t have. (OMG YES I DO IT EVERYTIME)
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Had more than 5 online conversations going at once.
Had a hamster.
Dyed your hair.
Had something pierced.
Gotten straight A’s.
Been handcuffed.

My hair is naturally the color:
Light brown
Medium brown
Dark brown
Blond
Black
Dirty blond
Strawberry blond
Multicolored
Red

My eyes are:
Brown
Dark Brown
Blue
Green
Hazel 
Light brown

People sometimes label me as:
Slut
Boyish
Colorful
Ugly
Nerd
Other 

Some of my biggest fears are:
Spiders
Slimy things
Dying
Doctor/Dentist appointments
Hospitals 
Needles
Disease
The dark
Heights
Small spaces
Oceans/large bodies of water
Large animals
Small animals 
Open spaces
Lightning
Tornadoes
Clustered holes
Bodily fluids
Corpses

I have:
A friend with benefits
A laptop in my room
A television in my room
Good grades
My own car
Parents who are still married
A dog
A cat
A game console

highschool, be nice

halooo. tanggal 13 juli kemaren gue udah mulai masuk sma loh, yay! (or nay?) semoga sma baik baik aja ya... dapet banyak temen deket, yang buruk buruk di smp gausah keulang plis:( btw udah peweeeeee banget sama kelas yang sekarang, X-4. tapii besok mau diacak lagii:( huhuhuhuh semoga gue dapet X IPS-1 ya O:)
sekarang gue mau ceritain tentang X-4 ajadeh. X-4 anaknya gila gila, kalo gaada guru yang masuk pasti foto foto WKWK. kemaren aja pas lagi psikotest kita malah foto foto..... kemaren aja pas lagi psikotest kita malah foto foto....:"") ♥